[ when mo ran's voice goes small and meek, chu wanning notices; he's so used to the loud, unrepentant student, so bright and vivacious and always demanding that attention, that the change feels wrong. he knows it's his fault, and from their argument earlier, he can trace the reaction to what he said, the creeping shame of exchanging affection in daylight, even somewhere closed off from the rest of the world, impacting mo ran, as well.
the gentleness mo ran uses to wash his hair is a far cry from the rough scrubbing chu wanning gives his hair, and like everything else about mo ran, it's unnerving, unsettling, throwing him just off-kilter enough that he doesn't know what to do. doesn't know how to say thank you— not just for washing his back and his hair, or the tender care he's put into everything this morning. he's far too good for the likes of chu wanning, and chu wanning is selfish enough to cling to him and keep him. it still surprises him that mo ran wants that, as well.
after washing his hair, chu wanning is ready to turn around until mo ran reaches for another bottle, the conditioner chu wanning always forgets about and rarely uses, and he stays still, letting him work his fingers through his hair, almost too much attention for his sanity. but eventually, mo ran is nuzzling against him, and chu wanning relaxes against him. letting it sit he can deal with him, especially since it gives him time to turn around in mo ran's arms and reach for the soap. ]
Let me wash your back.
[ it's the least he can do, and he wants to put his hands on mo ran. he might not be able to deal with the idea of doing anything... sexual during the day, even if he does want nothing more than to see if mo ran will fit in his mouth, but he can at least wash his back. ]
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the gentleness mo ran uses to wash his hair is a far cry from the rough scrubbing chu wanning gives his hair, and like everything else about mo ran, it's unnerving, unsettling, throwing him just off-kilter enough that he doesn't know what to do. doesn't know how to say thank you— not just for washing his back and his hair, or the tender care he's put into everything this morning. he's far too good for the likes of chu wanning, and chu wanning is selfish enough to cling to him and keep him. it still surprises him that mo ran wants that, as well.
after washing his hair, chu wanning is ready to turn around until mo ran reaches for another bottle, the conditioner chu wanning always forgets about and rarely uses, and he stays still, letting him work his fingers through his hair, almost too much attention for his sanity. but eventually, mo ran is nuzzling against him, and chu wanning relaxes against him. letting it sit he can deal with him, especially since it gives him time to turn around in mo ran's arms and reach for the soap. ]
Let me wash your back.
[ it's the least he can do, and he wants to put his hands on mo ran. he might not be able to deal with the idea of doing anything... sexual during the day, even if he does want nothing more than to see if mo ran will fit in his mouth, but he can at least wash his back. ]